The Wandering Thought.

It's been a long time since I posted something... It's a surprise, but I found an inspiration from one of my own poems today. That's why the topic "A walk inside". I wonder why that each time I write only one person seems to be the Inspiration and The Light that has been guiding me so far? Can it be because I've spent most of my life and the best moment with that person? I think so... He's the only father figure I've ever known all my life. From my childhood till I was a teenager... Even though I was not treated like a normal kid; I never cared that I never did what other kids of my age were doing... In stead, I would sit at home and learn about my people and my culture... Rituals and tradition... So on and so forth... Even if I might not have gone through what my childhood friends had; I never once thought that going for parties or doing things which they thought was fun could make a difference to life... Seeing the way I am, they always teased...

For a long time I wondered why do I have the most unique name. I never even once tried reasoning why my name is Baniaikynmaw? For the past few days I've been thinking of various names for my new born niece but was unable to think of any unique Khasi name. This let me into thinking about my own name instead. How did my mum decide to give me such a unique name? I couldn't think of any valid reason why this one particular name since my grand mum had given me a Christian name and a very common one at that... Today the 20 of February 09, after almost 25 years I came to know why I'm Banïaikynmaw. I felt so special when my mum told me the reason why I was given this name. The name was chosen so that my grand mum will always remember my dad by seeing ME!

Well... Some might think it's a funny incident... But to me... It's scary... It's been more than three years since I met with an accident but I still haven't got over the fear... I never had any problems crossing the roads by myself back home... I guess 'cause it's a very small city... Where I am right now... I can't even think of doing that on my own... To leave home is such a pain... I have to take an auto rickshaw from right in front of the house... Even if the directions are on opposite sides I'll still ask the auto driver to come to where am standing. Everyday the auto drivers in front of my house would drop me right in front of the office, so I don't need to cross the road. But today, I was stuck! I had to go for a meeting to the client's office and the auto was standing right opposite... There were very few cars initially from both sides of the road... When I was about to cross, there were more cars coming in the way... I was furious....